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Time flies so quickly that you don't notice the speed of it. The semester break seems as if it has just started but unfortunately, it is the other way round. A new semester had begun and work are just piling up on my desk. There are so much work to be done with certain time constraints. My hectic life has just began. Welcome to the world of a student..sleepless nights, endless worries about assignments, due dates, tutorials and the list goes on and on. Time is precious and it would be wise not to waste it. So, this is it.

Realization

It took me quite some time to actually realize things that I would have never realized if things did not happened as it did. Things seem to happened so fast, like a lightning flashed across the sky above yet its 'impact' had sent a visible message to me. Something that I should have known and realized from the start. It took me quite a while to really understand the hidden message, that everything happened for a reason and it's part of my life. In everyone's life as well I believe.

When someone conveyed the unpleasant news to me, I felt as if I had just been stabbed with a sword by an opponent. It hurts so much that I felt like the world is crumbling and tumbling down on me. I tried to hide my emotions but sad to say, I failed miserably. I blamed myself for so many things that I felt like there is not a single way that I would not have done so.

Then, I went to a bookstore one day and picked up a book, which is what I needed at that time to help me understand the unpleasant things that was and is happening to me. This book had taught me how to see myself in a different and broader perspective. After reading this book, I realized that every minute and hour ticked. No matter what has happened, there is not a single way that I could turn back the time nor could I change a single thing that has happened or the fate of other people. The only thing that I could change is myself, for the better. I believe there is always room for improvement.

I thought about a lot of things, people and the things they have said to me before. I can't deny the fact that I have not gotten over the unpleasant news but I'm trying though. Then, I found a note, or rather a message to me. After reading it, I realized that I am what I am now because of what I deserve to be and get. And, how much the people around me hurt so much seeing me hurt. I know God has arranged a path for us to walk and that He will not give us a test that He knows we are unable to go through. I just have to put in my best effort in everything I do and be patient and I know I will be rewarded.